Babydoll Ladybird

She's nice to me.
This is new.
She's funny and sweet and not a skinny manipulative damaged freshman with long dark hair. She's curvy and blonde and tall and has fashion sense and used to live in Japan and is my age. And she likes the old fashioned nicknames I use.
Oh dear.
This one is special.
She texts me good morning. And goes to bed at 9:30. And snores like a freight train. And is the best snuggler in the world....
I'm done with skinny bitches. I found my ladybird.

Blues

She sings the happiest blues I've ever heard.....

Hairrrrr

I love hair dye. When I was younger I used to laugh at people who dyed their hair all the time because it was unhealthy for their hair and everyone in the little town I lived in thought it was scandalous. Now I live in Portland, and I LOVE dying my hair all the time. I've dyed a strip under my ear 4 different colors, and then chopped all my hair off, and then dyed it all blonde, and then dyed it all red. You only live once, it will grow back, if you do it when you're older you'll just look sad and desperately trying to be youthful. Change is healthy! So that's why I love to dye my hair.

Nobody reads these.

So since nobody reads this blog, I'm just going to scream at all you imaginary readers for a minute, mk y'all?
WHAT THE FUUUUCK WHY DOES NOBODY LOVE ME IM SUCH A TEENAGE GIRL ALL I WANT IS TO BE LOVED AND TO LOVE WHY ARE RELATIONSHIPS ALL I THINK ABOUT WHY AM I WEARING THIS SHIRT WHY AM I GAINING SO MUCH WEIGHT WHY IS THERE NO AVAILABLE OPTIONS NOW THAT IM NOT INTERESTED IN BOYS I SHOULD JUST DATE BOYS AGAIN AND DEAL WITH THE LACK OF ATTRACTION SO I CAN ACTUALLY BE LOVED ACTUALLY WAIT THAT'S A HORRIBLE IDEA AHHHHHHHHHHHH
So. Anyways. Nadie me quiere y le quiero amar a ALGIEN pero no hay nadie .
Fuuuuuuudgecicles. I'm gonna die a lonely virgin.

Driving.....

Is it just me, or is the idea of learning how to drive really terrifying? I'm actually scared. I guess I'm always scared of learning new things but it doesn't change the fact that I have to learn soon and learn well so as to actually not kill anyone.....

Lizard Skin

Our makeup artist just bailed. Our photo shoot is in an hour and we are supposed to be lizard people. I am the surrogate makeup artist..... I'm going to fail.